A bit more of my story...

There came a point many years ago when I didn’t know whose life I was living.

That sounds so strange to say now, and it’s completely true. I was so lost that I felt devoid of all passion and drive. I was resigned that my life was as fulfilling as it was ever going to be. Decision-making was so unbelievably difficult from this place…  even simple choices of what to wear, or what to make for dinner, seemed impossible.

On the outside, my life looked great. I had a beautiful family, a well-paying job, a lovely house, and caring friends. And yet, I felt empty and had an overall feeling of dissatisfaction…  a feeling of, where am I and how did I get here?

The moment I said in my head that I felt empty was the moment my life began to change. My heart felt irrevocably broken and I felt utterly hopeless and resigned in one moment. And the next moment, a voice as clear as day told me, “No.”

Suddenly I saw the clear impact that my current life would have on those I cared about and the world. And in that seeing, I knew that things were going to change. The most dramatic impact related to my daughter…  in the seeing, I suddenly knew that I was to provide her with an example of a passionate, loving mother. I was to show her that she can do anything; she can be anyone. So, completely the opposite of how I was feeling!

At the time I had no idea how I was going to provide her with that example…  and oddly, I never questioned it. It was a commitment I made at a deeper level, one that I didn’t give thought to.

The owl, as a totem, reflects a period of great change and transition - a physical or metaphorical death, contact with deeper aspects of self, connection to intuition, and announcement of wisdom. 

I went through a period of deep personal growth, making many tough decisions, leading to a dramatically different life. I became reacquainted with the natural healer within me; and trained in energetic and shamanic practices (something the old me wouldn’t have thought to do). I began a process of becoming aware of what had been driving my behavior and decisions in the past, and healing parts of me that were wounded, subsequently revealing a fresh aspect of myself that was more closely aligned to my soul. During that process, I stripped away all the things I believed about myself and questioned every single thing I could find (with practices I continue to use)…

And along the way, I met myself…  the real Tina. Not the one I thought I was back then. I'm not sure I can even express the shock of realizing that there was this whole other me, that I had actually never met...  the shock of realizing that the "me" I had been for so long was really an array of masks I wore to please one person or another, or society as a whole. And this other me...  She is wise and full of answers when she looks deeply. She knows that in pleasing this Divine part of herself, she will automatically be doing the "right" thing, and that if she let someone down, at least she didn't let herself down. She is whole and loving, and she sees the highest aspect of everyone she encounters. In meeting her, I finally found that elusive thing we call self-love. 

I fell in love with myself and I fell in love with this weird world we live in. I found more joy than I ever could have imagined I’d experience! I found fulfillment. And above all, I found peace.

Now, more and more individuals who are experiencing similar sensations of unrest and confusion; people who are experiencing loss and emptiness, find me. I introduce them to their true selves and help them hear the guiding whisper of their soul. Together we work to bring awareness to their everyday actions... a practice that leads to interacting more consciously (and by that I mean, not through habitual responses) with themselves and the world around them, communicating with greater awareness and heart. Our work together leads to peace through connection, healing and practices that bring clarity where they once experienced fog.

The result is ease and flow...  feeling more sure about where life is heading, while at the same time feeling confident that when a curve ball comes, it will be handled with the same ease and flow they've come to expect out of their daily life; and having joy and passion for the possibilities...